By the way, the reason there hasn’t been a new gig posted on my music website is that I’m currently feeling stuck. I feel tired of the original songs I’ve been performing, I can’t see the point of performing (especially for audiences that are mostly made up of my friends), I feel like my music career is “going nowhere,” to use a total cliché, and I don’t even feel like performing the new songs I’ve written lately. And I don’t feel like writing any more new songs because what’s the point?
This is bad. Today I got off work at 3:00 p.m, came home and took a nap and then watched tv for eight hours straight. This has become typical of me. All I do anymore is watch tv and go online, go online and watch tv. And the only two things I do OUTSIDE of my apartment are work and work out. I guess working out is productive. But o my god, how many Law and Order episodes can I watch before my back goes out from lying on the sofa for hours at a stretch? I actually felt back pain tonight. In response, I stood up for a minute before I laid down again and kept watching. I think this counts as a Tivo addiction. If only I could drag myself to an open mic, I think I could begin to counter this decline.
Remember, if I slip into a permanent vegetative state, pull the plug…